ME!!!

I am nobody special.  I am a 45 yr old Kindergarten teacher.  I am a wife of 21 years and a mother of 2 great kids.  I can't even be called a 'boymom' or 'girlmom' (if that's a thing).  I have one of each, which is exactly what I prayed for.  Wait, maybe I am special.  I wanted to tell you a little of my back story so you understand where this blog is going.  I am a wife and a mother of an 18 yr old and a 15 yr old.  This will be my 21st year in teaching, with 19 years of that being in Kindergarten.  My oldest started college this year and my youngest started high school.  I have been asked several times if I am sad about my son starting college and moving out.  Actually, no.  I love the place we are in.  I love the conversations we have. I love the stories he tells about college  (he comes home every weekend). I love seeing him grow up to be a wonderful young man.  Yes, I miss him and worry about him.  But I know God is in control of his life and he is following God's lead.  Life has changed a lot since he left for college and yet it hasn't.  Our family started being involved in jr. high and high school sports a couple of years ago when my youngest was in 7th grade and my oldest was in 9th.  Now with only 1 child at home, I'm still doing both groups of sports.  In our small school, 9th graders play jr high and high school sports and academic teams.  That means basketball games 4 nights a week on a regular week and some weekends.  Double the softball,, academic team. Add on student council.  We don't add extra traveling teams to our lives because most play on Sunday.  Sunday is still our worship day.  We attend both services at Church, eat with family and rest.  I have spent most of my week day time after work, attending sporting events, academic meets, chauffeuring to activities and practices.  While I love my kids more than anything and want to go to every event they are in, I have lost 'me' in the last several years.  With my son going off to college, I have realized that in a few years my life will be completely different.  My time will be my own.  What will I do with it?  What is my passion?  Do I have any hobbies?  I have a few things that I have enjoyed in the past, but nothing I stuck with.  This blog will be about my journey to find out who I am.  I have a few years to work through this before my youngest graduates.  I will still be at every event, every game.  But maybe in the downtime, I can find me again.